Beautiful Malice

He looked into my eyes studded with that corporeal craving…I easily touched him on the chin and revolved around to be engulfed in a mist of love.

We have our moments of togetherness in the moisture laden breeze within the light-house .Years it had been our sojourns away from the stoic world. I had lived lives within these walls. We had our moments of seclusion, outlet for carnal desires, and woven tapestry of future together right here.

His hands touch me on my back, slowly guiding my sensuality to transcend the guards and blend in his aroma, I knew his moves, I knew his desires like always .Bodies tied down by some invisible force he magnetizes my body with his passionate kisses, uninhibited I groove with the flow as if this is the very last time we are making out.

I take him in my arms, kiss him so hard that the twinkle in his eyes say it all..He wanted more of me now, in his lusted form he was mine. Silently his saliva stricken tongue glides through my ears and he whispers the most beautiful words…”luv u my luv” I rotate to the sounds of the sea and push him of the top, silently watching his body fall down…down..Into the sea.

For seconds I feel a bang of pain deep within. Till his conduct walk in to my thoughts….didnt he kill me when he was sleeping with that lowly seductress from his Office. His deed kills me every second of the day I just killed him once in an impetuous act of solace seeking.

This was malice beautifully braided within me …

Closing my thoughts I sashay down the stairs and melt in the shadows of the crowd far away.

A heart never really heals...

The rain pattered down the empty house. I looked around for the warmth of that tight hug. But the solitude reverted back to my sensation. I stood in that emptiness thinking …Is it possible to get a different heart because mine can't afford to get broken anymore...? Can I trust someone the way I trusted him …Can I love someone as much as I love him! He can sit there and try to forget me that am fine it won’t bother me one bit but one thing he needs to realize that the memories shall always remain..And .these memories have been my constant allies for last three years now!

We met as strangers …on the first day of college. Though we never expressed but the sparks had flown when our eyes met the first time .And the follow on days after that we couldn’t face each other because we both knew what was budding in our hearts. Then one thing led to another and the unspoken exchange of the eyes got replaced by that late night conversations…From college...Friends..To love the passage was a remarkable one.

I still remember the day he asked “could I be his forever? And I Had nodded to reaffirm the love! I was living a life of fantasy till that one last fight took it all! After a complete journey of togetherness he ripped my heart into two! He told his family wouldn’t approve of our unification…And he will not go against his family. But what fired up, my anguished heart was that he never conveyed to his kin that I existed in some corner of this entirerity .He just kept reverberating his family wouldn’t commend! I just asked for one attempt at making this relationship a lasting one..He declined .and his nonchalance wounded my essence forever!

The memoirs of our last fight still disturbs my reality…I wish to rewind my life back ….I wish so that I can put everything right but I just know its too late for that! So I exist in this world like that tiny droplet of water on a petal lost and forgotten.

And you know what …A heart never heals certainly a broken heart never heals!!!

The Uncertainty Called life…

I woke up to her agonizing cries…I knew she was departing to take up her last journey .The course to a far away mysterious world! But why was I so restive, so profoundly in tenderness didn’t I know the veracity. Yes I did, and I reaffirmed my belief...a million times that night. The night was a sinuous one …it was taking away someone whom I loved. Someone for whom I cared! But could I really do anything?, No I couldn’t . My mental struggle was creating a distress precinct within me; I didn’t like it…this entire route of knowing that I was losing out on her was heart breaking! The furor, the shouts of people around nothing seemed to bother me …Locked in my web of imaginings,..the images disturbed me,the sessions of lullabies ,her random stories as she got old I was praying the almighty to condense her pain and he did...it was seconds, and she flew on her heavenly flight …I just had my tears to wish her goodbye!

May your soul rest in peace…Grandma ...

Love You

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CAN’T C U NE MORE...Xx

She lay on the bed perplexed …”If Everything is so right then why does it feel so wrong?”The message said it all, didn’t it? She had been so keyed up with the beep of the phone …that had been her lifeline for six long years! Distance never kills any relationship …It always makes the heart fonder that’s what she held...But how could such a strong link ……be broken by a single text message. She looks around to see the pictures depicting memoirs of their lives together. ..The fun…the laughter and the love .The life that was so perfect, that she was ready to relive it a thousand times…But now there wasn’t any life to live…..Yes there was no life to live!

The juxtaposed thoughts confused her….and the reality came crashing down on her

But …There was no more any life to live at all!

Tears…were flowing down her cheeks…She looked around ….to witness that her cries had no audience to entertain than the vacuum. The pain, the complexities of her so called perfect world … was that entire she had now!

How does she move forward? Where does she go from here? …

With the last drop of tear she whispers into solitude ….

Its said you hurt those you love …You must really love me a lot!

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